life is cruel nut interesting and wonderful?

hyyyyy.thzs me dydy
its a longgg time ago since i made this blogg
whew
aku sibuuuk skali
hihihi cuma mau curhat sedikit
hmph
aku baru saja ultah ke 16
yay
it means i am a step closer to get my identity card and my own drive license!
but aku juga was was
aku takut
ngedumel
aku sudah nglewati 1 tahun kehidupan ku ( entah berapa tahun Tuhan beri aku waktu)
aku takut kalau shift ku bwt hidup di dunia ini masih berapa lama lagi?
aku takut kalau beberapa tahun lagi Tuhan panggil aku dari "shift" ku di dunia ini dan i am not worthy enough to enter His palace?
and unworthy enough to be burned on the eternal flame?????
oh
I am sick of thsz life and found this life is cruel enough to a poor little girl like me.
but thus, just a cople days ago
i found ( agaiiin???) that I am really a silly girl i thought I am!
I just have realized it's foolish and useless to think too much about future.
We may prepare our mind to face the future but we dont have to rely too much on that.
I really understand thsz quotation i"d once read on a novel, The alchemist by Paulo Coelho : ' Because I don't live in either my past or my future. I'm interested only in the
present. If you can concentrate always on the present, you'll be a happy man. ........because life is the moment we're living right
now."
(or woman though i am still childish enough to be a little girl)
hey that's kinda strange but it helps me to turn my foul mood from the weeping prince into the laughing prince. hheee
tau tidak kata temen - temen ku aku keliatan kaya org sakit waktu ultahku jadi mereka gag jadi nglakuin rencana mreka buat ngguyur air ke aku. well berguna juga tuh pikiran ...